10.15pm
July 11, 2011
It’s been a very long time since I’ve visited my blog, maybe even the longest time. I have not been posting for the longest time since I started this blog. Life has been good to me so far! Time flies really fast and another semester of studying is gone. I doubt i will do well this semester but i shall work hard for next semester. Writing essays is definitely not my cup of tea.
I enjoyed the summer break very much. Meeting old friends and meeting new people. One thing i miss about Singapore is the variety of food which is cheap and good. But i miss my friends the most as there are always there for me and i know i can count on them even when times are rough. I guess there was a spark between girl and I but I decided not to light the fire as somehow i knew that it will not last between both of us. Furthermore she’s currently attached too!. I guess its fate that decided which path to take and this isn’t one of it.
This winter holiday is undoubtedly more interesting then the previous one although last year’s one was really good. The highlight of this holiday is definitely snowboarding in Snowy Mountains. Its the first time I’ve actually did any winter sports and played with snow. Not only did I get a sore butt, i also had sore wrists from all the falling down. But it was all worth it.
In about a week, a new semester begins and all hell will break loose once again. I hope that the coming semester will be better then the previous one.
The reason for me writing this post today is because I’m confused and conflicted. During the snowboarding trip, she reminded me on why i liked her last year but i know that nothing will happen between us. My guess is that I will see her with another friend in the not so near future but its hard to say as I do not know what she is thinking. But then again, it’s none of my business. The events during the summer break is also confusing and making me wonder who am i actually loving. But I guess time solves matters of the heart so maybe it will take another year before things become clear i guess. Now,i guess my main objective is to suppress my feelings for everyone and concentrate on playing games and studying. But i do yearn for company and hopefully, one day, the right girl will come by soon enough.
After writing this post, i feel better. At least the confused heart has spoken. =)
